States And Minds
I’m falling in and out again
Give up and go home. Alone, and suffer some more. This head of stone let’s no one in anymore. My effort is never enough. I’ll start unpacking all of my stuff. Cause I’ve come to know my place. So let’s wreck everything I’ve built except the base. You have no idea how unproductive it is to fall in and out of you as often as I do. And lately I’ve been feeling grey but today. I’m alright no thanks to you. Think I’ll go and roam outside your boundary. Walk on the ridge. Far away from the city. Friends of friends prove untrustworthy. Be gone, just like you were at the last party. No SOS until the bottles are empty. Now my hunger isn’t wasted anymore. Cause I’m younger but im tired and I’m sore. I know where you’ve been.You’re ruining men. Never again will I let someone in.
Getting food. I wish it could be delivered to me 100% of the time.
…right now is to have someone here with me to listen to heavy metal and colour my poster size Spider-Man pages with crayons along my side.